Weight Loss?

The weight has not come off for quite some time now. But I've started to notice when I don't exercise I get rather soft, especially around the middle, but my arms too. So EXERCISE is key! Obviously I need to eat healthy just for healths sake. But I know I can and will look and feel stronger the more I challenge myself and exercise EVERY day.

3 Months and Counting

I have 3 months to go. 3 months until I see my in-laws. I dread that the most. Those are the ones I want saying, "Wow, You look awesome!" Even still I don't think they'll say it. They all have a heck of a time giving compliments. But I'll see it in their eyes. I'll see that I can prove it, and show them.

I know that sounds prideful and whatever. But it's how I feel. Jared and I have been struggling in our marriage, struggling with our weight and all the issues that go with that. And I'm ready to show that it can be fixed, it all can be fixed.

I really do hate spending extended periods of time with Jared's family. We always fight more when we're with them. It's like we have to conform to their way of life, and be the same kind of family that they are. Which to be honest is kind of messed up. And Jared changes a lot when we're around them. I hate it.

I love when we leave though. I love getting my real husband back, not having the fake one that has to put on some face for his family. Man, I hate that!

3 months though, I'm treating it like I'm training for a Marathon. If I do all I can do EVERY DAY, in the end it will be enough. I know it will.

Eating Right

My weight loss has been at a stand still for about 4 months now. I didn't realize it had been that long. So I've started to really watch what I eat again. I love to exercise, yes, it makes me stronger but it doesn't seem to make me loose weight. My eating habits do though. I loose weight when I eat less and eat right. Why waste calories on a chocolate cookie when you can have over 5 slices of watermelon for the same calories and be WAY more satisfied and not feel guilty in the least.

If you eat right, you loose weight! Simple as that.

I love Exercise

I really do love working out. I feel like I'm reaching my goals. I'm happier because I feel healthier. I love looking in the mirror as I lift weights and watching my muscles work. I feel I'm accomplishing more than I have in a long time.

It's Working

A few months back I went through a traumatic experience and lost a lot of weight because if it. I was not eating, literally. I've thought since Christmas that the only way I can lose weight is to do that again. Not eat. That is not good. That is not healthy.

I've joined a new website. www.myfitnesspal.com It's great! It tracks my calories in and calories out in order for me to loose weight. And it's working. In the 7 day's I've been tracking and counting calories I've lost 3 lbs. 3!!!

I've decided this is just what Weight Watchers does. It helps you become aware of what you eat. You can still eat what ever you want you just have to factor that in to your daily calories. 1 cookie, not 10.

It's just math.
220 calories for a bowl of Multi Grain Cheerios with Milk
370 calories for a Glazed Donut with Hot Chocolate.

It's all about making healthier choices.

Am I Beautiful?

Like I said last night, I was raised in a family where you cleaned your plate THEN got dessert. Most likely 2 helpings of dessert. But I was always taught I am beautiful no matter what. I truly believe that. I really do. And I think that someone who has the confidence to love themselves has no problem accomplishing anything they put their minds to.

I love to exercise. Sometimes I feel guilty when I'm exercising and not doing my Homemaking jobs. Like ironing, cleaning bathrooms, doing dishes, vacuuming...etc. But this is something I have to do, and those things will have to wait for when I have the time.

Weight Loss/Gain

I really do hate my Skinnyr Graph. Mostly because it tells the truth about this journey I've put myself on. But I want to record it all, that's what this is all about. So once a week or more I will record my current weight.

Genetics?

I've said it before and I'll say it again. I come from a very obese family. My Mom is 5' 3" and weighs around 190, my Father is 5' 10" and is probably pushing 250 +, I'm really not sure. My oldest sister is 5' 4" and over 300 lbs. Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents, Cousins...Everybody!!! Do you get it.

I've never thought that obesity could be genetic, but I do now. I'm not saying it's a disease, no way, what you put in your mouth and what you do with your body has all to do with what you weigh. What I am saying is you metabolism and how easily your body is able to burn calories IS genetic.

I have 3 friends right now who's newborns are all under 1 and they are already at their pre pregnancy weight if not lighter, and this is their 3rd babies...all of them. AUGH!!! My number 4 is 2 1/2 yrs old and I am 12 lbs away to my full term weight with my #1. Do you understand how frustrating that is?

It's all in the genes.

So here's the thing. I know I can get on here and make promises and goals and blah blah blah. But unless I get off my butt, move, and stop putting so much crap in my mouth nothing is going to change.

I know I do not have those easy genes. Obviously. But I do know that when I move, when I exercise I feel better about myself, better about my relationships, I'm a better Mom, I'm more organized, I have confidence in what I do, I make AND accomplish greater goals and everything is just all around better.

It's not just about losing the weight, it's about feeling better about myself and knowing I can do anything I set my mind to.

There is no finally for this Biggest Loser. It's a lifestyle. I want to be happy and healthy. And I know I can't have one with out the other. Oh yes, I can be happy and chubby, but it's not real for me. I know there's always more I can do, there's always progress to be made.

Keep Moving!!!

P90X

I started the Classic Routine with my hubby a few weeks ago, and burned out by Thursday. BLAH!! It's so pathetic. So today I have decided to do the Lean Routine, but not just P90X. I will exercise 45 mins a day either with P90X or with my own routines 5 days a week. So that means Cardio 3 days a week and strength 2 days a week. I really want to see some difference in myself.

The scale is going the wrong direction and there needs to be some change.

Back on Track

I have been a HUGE slacker lately and needed a rev up in my workouts. My hubby and I are working towards starting P90X. I'm scared out of my mind, but I know it'll do wonders for me. So in lew of starting P90X I am eating better. Yesterday was the 1st day in a LONG time that I ate NO, I repeat, NO desserts. I know to some that may seem like nothing, but you would be amazed how many "special occasions" are always creeping up on you.

For example. The day I start my "NO DESSERT DIET" my oldest son has Cub Scout Pack Meeting. Which of course always ends in a treat. This time being huge Rice Crispy Treats. Which I didn't even sneak a bite from my 2 year old.

Oh and add that to the fact my daughter and I got to go out to dinner just the 2 of us, to the Mall Food Court no less. I was strong as iron and walked right past "American Cookie", "Cinnabon" and "Marble Slab Creamery."

Back track a few more hours from that to where I was Pre-School helper. They were served chocolate animal crackers and pure butter microwave popcorn (which I know isn't dessert but still bad for you non the less).

Oh, and let's end the day with my hubby and I's treat for the evening 1-3 bowls of straight sugar cereal, Captain Crunch or Lucky Charms for example. I skipped that too.

I swear dessert is everywhere!! And it's definitely my weakness. But I did it!!! One whole day with NO desserts. It was much harder than I thought it'd be. But I woke up this morning with the scale SMILING at me. I love when those numbers are moving down and not up.