Keep MOVING Forward

I've always been a skinny girl. Growing up I ate like a horse and played like one too, I ran all day and all night. So it's no wonder I was so skinny.

I used to look at Fat people, or newer Moms that were starting to get fat and wonder, "Don't they notice what they look like? How do they let themselves look like that? Why don't they do something about it?"

I never knew how hard it was to lose weight, till now. There is a # I keep coming back to 156.2. I am so SICK of seeing that number on the scale. Over the past year I have not been able to even get below 152. I SO want to be back in the 140's and eventually in the 120's. Man! That would be so good.

I'm doing what I can though. I'm exercising as much as I can. I probably could do more, yes, but I am sweating it out every day. I'm not doing the lazy man and just walk around the block. But I'm not always running around the block either.

Keep Moving Forward!

Real Mom

I'm a real Mom with real weight loss issues. I have 4 kids under 9, I don't work, I eat Mac and Cheese for lunch with my kids. I bus my kids all over town for Scouts, Gymnastics, Baseball, Pre-School, Piano...etc. I get up every day at 6:15 and go go go all day till I crash around 11:00. I'm only able to sneak in about 30-60 mins of exercise a day. I do have a free gym membership but money is tight and they don't have free kids room so I don't go. I am able to walk my dog most nights when my hubby is home so there is that.

I could easily say, what's wrong with me. I do all I do but I still don't lose like I want to. So it all comes down to Portion Control and eating the right food. I have to WORST sweet tooth in the world. I LOVE sugar. But I want to replace that sweet desire with a healthy desire. And I don't mean carrots and apples. I mean running, biking, hiking, swimming, in line skating...MOVING! I love to exercise, but I need something different every day.

So that's my goal this week. Try something new everyday, oh! And Ab work, that definitely needs to be in there.

Sabotage

I think I am sabotaging myself. Every day this week I have had HUGE treats, once the kids go to bed. I've really upped my exercise and I think deep down I'm thinking that means it's ok for me to eat more. But it's backfiring. I'm not just staying even but instead gaining.

I guess it's good I'm exercising so as to not gain a drastic amount. But on the flip side I want, NEED, it to go down. I don't want to be chubby anymore, I DON'T.

I know what I need to do, I'm just scared to do it. NO MORE DESSERTS! I find if I don't eat even a little I don't crave it at all. I have to just get passed the initial temptation then I'm cool. Problem is, if I have 1 bite that's it, I eat it all and then some. AUGH!!! It's so frustrating.

Valentines

This was not a good weekend. Man, I think I horked down as many treats as I could. Chocolate cake, cheese cake, candy, hot chocolate. BLAH!!! I really need to throw out all those leftovers. BLAH, BLAH, BLAH!!! It was good while it lasted but MAN, I have got to be done.

Is there anyone out there who knows how to make it through Holidays, of any sort, with out overdoing it?

Jared, my hubby, is going out of town again for a few days. Sometimes that's better. We eat less BIG meals when he's gone, and I surprisingly get more exercise. I know...that does not make sense.

On a plus side, things are warming up around here, so when Jared does get home I plan on starting to walk Charlie a lot more. He needs it as much as I do, and I really need that alone time to whined down at the end of the day.

So that's where I'm at.

Sick Again

I got sick this weekend. Vomiting and diarrhea. The only positive thing of it all was I am no longer craving food that is bad for me. I'm using this time of healing to get rid of my sugar cravings, and rid myself of high fat cravings. I've been well for about a day and I still want to puke when I think of French Fries or Chocolate Cake.

On top of all that I'm also lowering my portions again. I find I eat just the same as my kids and I'm completely full. 2 Cups of Chef Salad and I'm completely satisfied. Not full, mind you, but you don't have to be full at every meal. I'm feeling so much healthier because I'm not stuffed to the max after every meal and feeling completely guilty because of it.

Today is my 3rd day of eating this way. I feel like if I can keep it up for a week I'll be good to go. But even though Valentines is looming around the corner I feel like I'm gonna be ok. I'll let you know.