Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Am I Beautiful?

Like I said last night, I was raised in a family where you cleaned your plate THEN got dessert. Most likely 2 helpings of dessert. But I was always taught I am beautiful no matter what. I truly believe that. I really do. And I think that someone who has the confidence to love themselves has no problem accomplishing anything they put their minds to.

I love to exercise. Sometimes I feel guilty when I'm exercising and not doing my Homemaking jobs. Like ironing, cleaning bathrooms, doing dishes, vacuuming...etc. But this is something I have to do, and those things will have to wait for when I have the time.

Weight Loss/Gain

I really do hate my Skinnyr Graph. Mostly because it tells the truth about this journey I've put myself on. But I want to record it all, that's what this is all about. So once a week or more I will record my current weight.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Genetics?

I've said it before and I'll say it again. I come from a very obese family. My Mom is 5' 3" and weighs around 190, my Father is 5' 10" and is probably pushing 250 +, I'm really not sure. My oldest sister is 5' 4" and over 300 lbs. Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents, Cousins...Everybody!!! Do you get it.

I've never thought that obesity could be genetic, but I do now. I'm not saying it's a disease, no way, what you put in your mouth and what you do with your body has all to do with what you weigh. What I am saying is you metabolism and how easily your body is able to burn calories IS genetic.

I have 3 friends right now who's newborns are all under 1 and they are already at their pre pregnancy weight if not lighter, and this is their 3rd babies...all of them. AUGH!!! My number 4 is 2 1/2 yrs old and I am 12 lbs away to my full term weight with my #1. Do you understand how frustrating that is?

It's all in the genes.

So here's the thing. I know I can get on here and make promises and goals and blah blah blah. But unless I get off my butt, move, and stop putting so much crap in my mouth nothing is going to change.

I know I do not have those easy genes. Obviously. But I do know that when I move, when I exercise I feel better about myself, better about my relationships, I'm a better Mom, I'm more organized, I have confidence in what I do, I make AND accomplish greater goals and everything is just all around better.

It's not just about losing the weight, it's about feeling better about myself and knowing I can do anything I set my mind to.

There is no finally for this Biggest Loser. It's a lifestyle. I want to be happy and healthy. And I know I can't have one with out the other. Oh yes, I can be happy and chubby, but it's not real for me. I know there's always more I can do, there's always progress to be made.

Keep Moving!!!

P90X

I started the Classic Routine with my hubby a few weeks ago, and burned out by Thursday. BLAH!! It's so pathetic. So today I have decided to do the Lean Routine, but not just P90X. I will exercise 45 mins a day either with P90X or with my own routines 5 days a week. So that means Cardio 3 days a week and strength 2 days a week. I really want to see some difference in myself.

The scale is going the wrong direction and there needs to be some change.